I read a little about "dual diagnosis" yesterday and it made me remember?

before i went into detox i remember the dr. talking about 'he might be a dual diagnosis" which never was followed up on - meanwhile, 5 years later - i am not happy - i can not cope in public or relate to people at all - i'm an INTJ which would make me not like being around people much I guess - but what i'm going through does not feel healthy
but then this yesterday thing sparked memory about what the dr. said and then it kindof confirmed something i'd been thinking for a while anyway
ok great i'm sober - but you know, nothing has changed- other than that i no longer am able to cope, even though my prior mechanism was killing me
but now i'm like, sofuckingwhat - this is worthless b.s. anyway
my life has been totally wasted
and you know, at times i let myself think that "it wasn't so bad when i was drinking" and I know that isn't right but I still feel just as bad and broken as when i was drunk - but just differently
i must have a social anxiety disorder
never really dated either proper
ya no - i've been to AA and it doesn't do it for me - i'm not going to start drinking again

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